Love Live Smile

This blog has traveled with me all through high school. Carrying with it, my hopes, dreams, lies, love, tears and friendships of the last four years. I feel that the time have come where I start a new chapter of my life. The words of Nhan Vu at a meeting stuck with me for a week, the next chapter of our lives. I finally feel that now I am ready to start that new chapter of my life on a new slate. It might not be as consistent as my time during high school but it reflects who I am today. 

I was contemplating on deleting this blog for this blog contained my stupid little moments. However, I decided to keep this blog here as a reminder of who I was and why/how it made me who I am today. I hope one day, someone who want to know me better can sew all these stories together to find out who I am. With this, I end the life of this blog here. I am still lovelivesmile but in a way, I feel I’m much more simpler than just that. 

If you are interested in joining me further:

http://simplediana.tumblr.com 

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Thank you for accompanying me on my journey here. 

At times, I honestly feel like I lost all the motivation to go on. At a constant battle with myself, trying to figure out where to go next. There are times like these that I feel I had an escape route on finding out where to go and what to do. Wouldn’t life be so great if it was clear and simple? But I guess that just takes out the intriguing element of life. I honestly don’t know how I feel/think anymore. Maybe I didn’t have enough sleep or whether I went through an emotional draining night or the fact that my paper is still uncomplete. 

On the lighter note, after turning my paper in today. I’m a free bird until Sunday! I really want to go see the movies on Tuesday. But I think everyone is busy. 

I think since college started, I seem to have much more a social life. My academic life is still going but more of a social life because I’m living with friends (see how it’s friends and not floormates?) So yesterday I had my floor (the social ones) over in my room for a pizza party. It was great having our quiet floor all together (well some of them). But study group of Chem 1A formed. People took pictures. We all got along really well despite coming from different backgrounds. It’s amazing how the diversity we bring the floor. I love these girls. Our RA was also really chill. She came over. I did not know that there were at least 3 other Pre-Meds on my floor. Well after the party I went and cleaned up. After vacuuming and watching my floormatees down the hall vacuumed, I went to take a shower. For some reason that day, I decided to not bring any clothes with me but a bathrobe. I live on an all girls floor. It just happened to be so that the day my floormate decide to bring her guy friend from high school into my room. I walked into the room nearly complete naked besides my bathrobe. How nice for a first impression. Then James come over and I’m like damn I’m not gonna get any homework done tonight. My adorable floormate, Alisa, decides to visit us last night too. So there was my two other roommates, me, my two floormates and two other guys in my room until like midnight. We played a card storytelling game and I’m always screwing someone in that game. Tell me why! It was fun and before sleeping, I managed to finish my Illliad reading! Hip Hip Hooray!

It wasn’t until I was finished with my first week of college did I realized that college can be fun. It depends how you want it to be. In the last week, I made a lot of new friends. Some of them are floormates, building mates, classmates and even random people I just meet. I learned to let go of the inhibitions I used to hold on during high school. I learned to actually be free and crazy. Dancing like there’s no tomorrow. I danced without music on. I’m also glad that I went to Berkeley. I got to hang out a lot with Trinh! I love going to her Vietnamese class! Also I’m very glad I joined PASS and VSA. Who knows where things will lead you to? I gained a study buddy from VSA who is a classmate of mine. The leadership banquet was fun! But most importantly of that banquet was that I got to bond with my roommates preparing me for it. Also going to Cal lead me to becoming closer friends with James and Diane. I love college life despite the work. Can’t wait to go back Wednesday but for now I’ll enjoy the vacation with my parents!

I’ve tried to avoid my emotions since starting college and moving out. But now I actually love home a lot and my parents. I also feel bad for not being there for the majority of my friends but after tonight, I realized that I have school and it’s what I feel strongly for! I am far but just a simple text isn’t that hard to do if one is true to stay there. I just need to take the first step and step out of the world I’ve been accustomed to for the last five, six maybe seven years. I never knew if I was ready. But now, I feel like I can do thaat without hesitation because there are people who may not be people I am good friends with, who might just be there for me in the next stages of my life. I am ready to step out there! This post is dedicated to those who helped me get back up again tonight!

captainsway:

It’s hosted by my school, but I feel like sharing:

As part of the Republican budget cuts, Pell Grants are going to be reduced by $845 per student.

The Pell Grant is the nation’s cornerstone financial aid program, providing aid to 9.2 million students per year. But the House’s budget cuts mean Pell Grants are going to be reduced by $845 per student. That may not seem like a lot in Congress, but… it’s a huge number for anyone trying to get themselves through college.

For most of us, $845 is the cost of books for a year. We need to remind Congress that $845 is a big deal. Join the Bill Your Books to Boehner Campaign and remind House Speaker John Boehner just how big a deal these cuts are.

Tell Speaker Boehner what $845 a year means to your education. Please send a message/letter and/or copies of your book receipts to the Speaker and let him know your:

Name:
School:
What $845 means to you:

Mail:
Speaker John Boehner
H-232 The Capitol
Washington, DC 20515

E-mail:
SpeakerBoehner@mail.house. gov

(via myopenscrap-book)

Haven’t been on tumblr so long. I don’t even remember the last time I went on. But so much have gone on that it’s nearly impossible to not vent. I had a quick and nauseating summer. I mean it’s been great and all. I got to spend time with family traveling. But deep down inside I feel so empty. Nothing seems to describe this feeling. I used to be overwhelmed with feelings and emotions. It seems this might be the best summer in the four years but I seem to not enjoy it. I feel like there’s still loose ends from high school that I might just have to leave behind. I want to put the past behind me but running away from it doesn’t quite solve the problem. I guess I’ve been so reliant on having someone there for me all the time that I actually feel lonely this summer. Reading the old message that I actually buried left me thinking about my past. What happened three years ago still affect me now even when I try to change things. I wish someone just sweeps me up and help me in my moment right now. Okay I’m done ranting.

illogicallylogical asked: Palm Springs has nothing to do unless you are a homosexual. Sad but true. Movies, bowling, and drinking are the main forms of entertainment for those under 21. Lol.

A 4.41 cum? A 4.83 for the semester!? Jesus… Now that's absurd!

AO was that online thing, right? I ended up choosing entirely different classes as well. 1 requirement and 1 pre-requisite for my major. Discrete Mathematics (Math 55) and Honors Linear Algebra (Math H110) which is an upper division class. I made it honors so I'd be challenged =D

I need an American Cultures class and a DeCal class to hit 13units and then I am good to go. I remember seeing Asian Americans was open. I'm hoping they have the DeCal class called Scrabble. The class teaches you strategies for playing scrabble and the homework is to play 1 game of scrabble outside class a week. Easy 1 unit class! I'm hoping they have a class on the show house, that would be fun. Lol. Phase 2 is from july 15 to august something I think. Going to jump on that for a decent class. Easy is best. Lol. The ping pong class looks good too. So awesome.

Haha I just read your tumblr. Haha it’s alright. I don’t think we will see each other unless we set something up. I only know your name and there will probably be 500 others with the same name. We both don’t have a picture of ourselves on tumblr. I did hear about the scrabble class. I do want to take one decal class since it sounds interesting. For phase 2 you should look on your telebears for the appt. They give you exact dates.

illogicallylogical asked: I live near Palm Springs, unless you mean where my apartment is, in which case it's next to the bart. CalSo most people were sweating and I was in a long sleeve shirt and a sweater. I'm going to be cold in the winter. When it's freezing out I can put on more clothes, but when it's hot out I can't take them off without being arrested. Lol. Walked out of the airport and my skin started sizzling :(

Coming in right out of high school, nice! I'm guessing you had a 5.0gpa. My friends had gpa's around 4.8 and didn't get in. I won't even say what mine was… it's sad. Math is awesome, you should love it haha.

What classes did you enroll in for your first semester?

Haha well Berkeley will be great for you. You practically can walk out naked and you’ll be perfectly fine. Palm springs wow. I would die there.

Nah I didn’t get a 5.0. That’s just absurd. Haha I got a 4.41 cum. But I was heavily involved in other activities such as volunteering and clubs. I’m amazed 4.83 was my semester gpa. But not cumulative.

I was not having best of luck at CalSo I ended up not choosing any of the 15 classes I got from AO. However I managed to signed up for two classes: sociology and asian Americans in the us. I’m hoping to sign up for classics 10 and geography during phase 2.

How about you? What are your classes?

illogicallylogical asked: July 25th! Thank you, I'm lazy. Lol.

Haha if we wanted to meet up it would probably be set up like this.
Me: Okay, I'll meet you at starbucks on shattuck and university Ave.
LoveLiveSmile (LLS): I'll be wearing a red shirt with a purple and blue pola dotted skirt.
Me: You're weird, but okay. I'll be wearing jeans and a shirt. To narrow it down I'll sit in a corner with a winnie the pooh doll.
LLS: Okay! 12pm works. It's in a public place with people around. In case you're a 52 year old convict. Have to be safe!
Me: Ummm… yeah. Good idea…

I hate my pictures. I think I look horrible in all of them. I look decent on my Cal 1 Card though… forgot to look at the camera until it went off. Lol.

Take a DeCal! If it's scrabble I might be there!

Haha I don’t wear skirt. It’ll be more like im the short Asian girl with glasses since I can’t see most things without them. Wearing red at cal may not be the best idea ever. . Hahaha I don’t think you sound like. 52 year old creeper. My cal card picture was all up in my face. Like literally. Everyone else was far back and perfect. Mine is so up in my face.